(From Aoradh daily meditations- the first part is here.)
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.I am sometimes invincible
And forget my need for you
Even in the shallow certainty of success
Stay with me father
.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.And when I surely succumb
To the gravity of my human condition
Let the darkness be holy
Let the black become royal purple
And the shadows
Become your open arms
.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.This means that you are never
An accidental father
You have no bastards
No unwanted drains
On your holy resources
.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.Because there is a masterpiece you made
In me
Framed in this shabby shape
Are your majestic brushstrokes
.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.Unborn I was known
Unconceived I was expected
There was a space empty
Waiting for the shape of me
.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;And you became incandescent
With hope
.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.Weigh me on scales
Skewed towards grace
For my heart is heavy
With the unshed weight of my world
.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.Open me gently
To the new-
To the possibility
Of something deeper
And more beautiful
