I have spent a lot of time over the last year or so looking forward. Dreaming of new things, hoping for new directions, making little steps towards…
I am not sure where it has left me- there are a few balls still in the air that I am juggling- but it has left me a little short of energy for NOW.
I am am a dreamer- a looker towards the far horizon. When things happen for me, I am often not fully satisfied- partly because I am too critical of things I have done, but also because I tend to continue to look at things from a certain distance. There is the me who is here, but also the me watching from over there.
This will make sense to some of you- others will think I am bonkers.
But as anyone who has spent time in any kind of therapy will tell you- the measure of its effectiveness will be the degree to which we are fully present- fully within the moment.
As anyone who has tried to live a contemplative/spiritual life will tell you- cynical objectivity is no route to any kind of enlightenment.
So one of the things I try to consciously put myself to is an awareness of NOW. Some things help me do this- Michaela, poetry, wild places, music with Emily, cricket with William.
But I all too easily lift my eyes again- the horizon is calling. It is not that I do not love the things/people I live with- it is just that there is this pull towards something else- even when I struggle to define what this something else might be.
Today has been a case in point. I spent a lovely day with Michaela- she had to go to hospital for a scan, and so we took a drive to Balmaha on the shores of Loch Lomond and became tourists for the afternoon- walking in the bright sunlight, eating ice creams.
Days like these- moments like these- are precious.
this fragile tent 
Chris,
You know I’ve seen this “blueprint”; a new scientific paradigm with G-d at the centre. Just looking at the material theory, which is the only part of the paradigm on offer at the moment, it represents a thoroughly big shift in the mind-set of physicists. That is why it has not yet been taken on-board fully and you haven’t heard of it.
Physicists will have to accept that causality, or determinism, rules the material world, rather than the dice they’ve been used to at the quantum level. They will also have to understand that the universe is truly infinite. They will then have to accept that the work they are doing at the Large Hadron Collider is looking in the wrong direction. These are all thoroughly big changes that will not come easily and will take time. “At the gates of progress stand a thousand guards guarding the past”.
Because it answers Einstein’s remaining questions and deepest issues I know it will come to be accepted, one day. It’s just that the equation concerned comes with one extra little doorway to another Domain (which I shan’t go into in depth here). But I do know that this new paradigm will come about. The world will see a new picture in which an External Domain (outside of time) is a requirement. This outside-of-time domain will be seen as the source of everything. It will be shown to contain the seat of our consciousness and free-will, a free-will which has the power to counter the determinism I mentioned above.
For me, this is not a dream, it is a vision of the actual future; one in which the church and science re-unite following the long divorce after Galileo. It represents a coming of age of mankind when we realise, in fullness, who we really are and where we really come from. Those voices promoting a purely materialistic outlook will become quieter and if they do shout, they will be laughed at. There may even be court cases, where the defendant claims, in his defence, that it was predetermined that he carry out the bank robbery and he could do nothing about it. The prosecution will claim that the new paradigm shows that he really does have free-will and that it is not illusory. The courts may well therefore be the place where it is decided for once and all that there is no doubt that we do have free-will AND that G-d exists!
This is the vision I have of the future and the dreaming that I do. One day it will happen. The questions I ask myself are whether the church will be ready. The new paradigm will change not just science, but religion as well and the relationship between the two. I see that if science starts to claim that it has seen G-d, then it will initially gain the upper-hand in a domain where it has no experience to operate (morals, conduct). Yet in contrast the church, having been used to feeding off the scraps from the dice-laden table, could feel powerless and act more as the follower than the leader.
These are where my thoughts go (nothing like your “NOW”ness I’m afraid!
Carl
I had a discussion with my husband about the book he was reading written by Stephen Hawkings (who has recently said that God has had no bearing on the creation of the universe…which offended me greatly!) and in it is a quote from one of my favourite saints, Saint Augustine who said, before creating the universe, God did nothing. To accept this is to have dogmatic faith. It’s uneasy at times but St Thomas was proven to his faith as well as so many others. I guess this in more in answer to the previous reply than to the post but yes, I agree searching is always under the skin.
Hi Earthma,
I think I understand what you’re saying, which is that to enclose G-d within our own restricted mind-set and to provide Him with OUR precepts is a wrong thing. In which case; I agree with you wholeheartedly. Everything we can possibly learn about G-d, from any source imaginable has to be seen as the miserable attempt of a limited mind at understanding the unfathomable, the infinite, the ineffable, the… .
Carl