On Friday (snowy conditions permitting!) I head off down to St Asaph, North Wales, to take an 8 day silent retreat at St Beunos Ignatian Spirituality Centre. I suddenly know loads of people who are planning a retreat there this year- well, 4 or 5 anyway. It seems that the new direction of many of us who have been on a journey from evangelical/charismatic Christianity, via emerging/missional metamorphosis, is towards older forms of monastic contemplation- and silence in particular.
It is not surprising really when you think about it. People like me who have been immersed in leading worship have always been longing for a deeper connection with God. In the past the methods to connect have included the intense cauldron of ecstatic worship music, through to creating open spaces with non directive ‘stations’, or spending time in wild places watching the changing skies. The journey has been away from the large auditorium towards older, simpler traditions.
I do not think there is any kind of technique that gives us some kind of hot line to God. I do however remember the Abbot of Worth Abbey making statements about “silence being the window to the soul, and the soul being the window to God- it just works that way.” It feels like the right time to test this theory- not just for me it seems.
Not without some apprehension however! 8 days in my own head. It might be an unpleasant place, a boring place, a dysfunctional place, a darn right depressing place. I expect to miss my home and family desperately. I expect to be tested and broken a little (or a lot.) Or worse than all of this, it could be an empty experience, a waste of time- a self absorbed narcissistic backwater.
Appropriately the Emergent Village minimergent yesterday was as follows;
If we were not so single-minded about keeping our lives moving, and for once could do nothing, perhaps a huge silence might interrupt this sadness of never understanding ourselves and of threatening ourselves with death.
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Good luck Chris! I spend many a day in my own head and it’s not as scary as you think. It’s one of the best ways of getting to know yourself, warts and all!
All the best Chris. (I have been offline for ages due to broken computers and other domestic crises.) I hope you find inspiration and much peace at St Bueno’s . I know many who have been there and they all speak highly of it. The beautiful surroundings should help ! Great quote from Neruda !
What a wonderful opportunity! I know so many who have had transforming times at St Bueno’s. It is too far away for me, with school age children at the moment but I do go to an Anglican monastery near me. I always find a long spell of silence brings up so much and I often spend the first day in frustration. I remember one retreat when I raged at God for making me do something that was so difficult but I always, eventually enter into the silence and there God is waiting.
I like Ignatian spirituality. I suits me very well and doing the Spiritual Exercises in Daily life transformed my faith. Have a good 8 days.
Thanks everyone for your encouragement!
I may be late to wish you well, but believe me you will find 8 days short and wish to prolong the experience. Try a 30 day retreat someday.
Sr. Maureen, Fukushima, Japan