Aoradh meditation- renovation…


 

It is already Thursday- and still no mediation this week.

It is my fault.

But by way of explanation, I offer you some thoughts on renovation. You see, the beginning of this week was dominated by work on Paul’s new kitchen. Taking an empty, barren space, and starting to create a place of sustenance, of hospitality and creativity.

Which is, of course, a very spiritual thing. Here are a few things that Paul and I came up with as we were working-

  • Houses are essentially simple things- dig a hole, pile some stones, and frame them with wood. But we make them so complicated, and invest such power in them
  • Of course, it all starts with the foundations
  • Renovation requires destruction of some of the old, and preservation of other bits
  • It also always takes longer than you think- and will test you in ways you did not expect
  • It goes a lot easier if you have others who will work with you- particularly those with skill and experience.

But we are called to live in a way that stands in both celebration and in critique of our culture- and to do this, we have to also understand the Zeitgeist– the spirit of our age.

To understand how we came to idolise property acquisition- and to seek an empty lifestyle whose meaning was found via Ikea. All those makeover programmes which would have us believe that happiness is found in a tin of expensive paint and a new bathroom suite.

 

These things are good. But there is so much more that is better.

 

And in case you ever doubted it- the challenge this week is to take a look at where you live, and to deliberately re-imagine the spaces in which you spend much of your life.

 

There are lots of ways to do this-

  • To consider how they might be used in new ways
  • To be grateful for shelter and comfort again
  • To take an aspect of the space you live in and use it to deliberately turn to God
  • To consider whether it might be time to clear out, and perhaps to bless others
  • To consider whether it might be time to bring people in, to share the space

 

Take one room at a time.

 

Ask God to open it up for a while as a temple.

 

 

 

Aoradh meditations, Psalm 55- Sunday…

SUNDAY

But as for me, I trust in you.

I made a choice to hope-

Despite all evidence to the contrary

To believe that despite the pain of birth

Life is just so beautiful

That despite our capacity to kill and maim

There is still such tenderness in your touch

And despite my lack of grace

Grace remains

Walk with me

Through the mess of my uncertainty

And whatever this life will lay down

I am no longer afraid

I am for you Lord

Aoradh meditation- Psalm 55, Friday…

FRIDAY

12 If an enemy were insulting me,
I could endure it;
if a foe were rising against me,
I could hide.
13 But it is you, a man like myself,
my companion, my close friend,
14 with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship
at the house of God,
as we walked about
among the worshipers.

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I tried anger for a while

But in the end

I am just diminished

Empty like a dirty city street

On Sunday morning

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Because those things that we planted together

Those places where good things grew

They now lie barren

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And you my friend, became my judge

Sitting high on a bench before your hanging jury

And the verdict was never in doubt

I am convicted by every word I speak

It is as plain as the pain

In my face

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Blessed are those who dwell together in unity

It is like dew in the desert

Like anointing oil on stormy waters

Like yesterday

Now gone

Aoradh meditations, Psalm 55- Thursday…



THURSDAY

I see violence and strife in the city.
10 Day and night they prowl about on its walls;
malice and abuse are within it.
11 Destructive forces are at work in the city;
threats and lies never leave its streets.

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The windows have locks

The doors have bars

The blinking eye of the PIR

Scrutinises me from the corner

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This house became my castle

But behind my high ramparts

My flesh is pale and soft

For I am afraid

.

Every pool of light

Serves only to better expose me

To the telephoto cross hairs

Of snipers

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But what quality of life is this

That would sacrifice humanity

To preserve an illusion

Of security?

That would wall the mess of me

From the mess of you?

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Because love is dangerous

Start me on this pilgrimage

Called risk

Aoradh meditations, Psalm 55- Wednesday…

WEDNESDAY

6 I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest.
7 I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;[c]
8 I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm.”

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There are days when I would exchange my world

For a cave

Wrap me up in shadows

For darkness put out

My light

.

Carry me away

Over these monochrome mountains

Why would I stay?

What more could you want from me?

Aoradh meditations, Psalm 55- Monday…

The next week’s meditations will be based around Psalm 55.

A cry of Lament.

Here it is in full…

Psalm 55 (NIV)

For the director of music. With stringed instruments. A maskil of David.

1 Listen to my prayer, O God,
do not ignore my plea;
2 hear me and answer me.
My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught
3 because of what my enemy is saying,
because of the threats of the wicked;
for they bring down suffering on me
and assail me in their anger.

4 My heart is in anguish within me;
the terrors of death have fallen on me.
5 Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me.
6 I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest.
7 I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;[c]
8 I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm.”

9 Lord, confuse the wicked, confound their words,
for I see violence and strife in the city.
10 Day and night they prowl about on its walls;
malice and abuse are within it.
11 Destructive forces are at work in the city;
threats and lies never leave its streets.

12 If an enemy were insulting me,
I could endure it;
if a foe were rising against me,
I could hide.
13 But it is you, a man like myself,
my companion, my close friend,
14 with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship
at the house of God,
as we walked about
among the worshipers.

15 Let death take my enemies by surprise;
let them go down alive to the realm of the dead,
for evil finds lodging among them.

16 As for me, I call to God,
and the LORD saves me.
17 Evening, morning and noon
I cry out in distress,
and he hears my voice.
18 He rescues me unharmed
from the battle waged against me,
even though many oppose me.
19 God, who is enthroned from of old,
who does not change—
he will hear them and humble them,
because they have no fear of God.

20 My companion attacks his friends;
he violates his covenant.
21 His talk is smooth as butter,
yet war is in his heart;
his words are more soothing than oil,
yet they are drawn swords.

22 Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let
the righteous be shaken.
23 But you, God, will bring down the wicked
into the pit of decay;
the bloodthirsty and deceitful
will not live out half their days.

But as for me, I trust in you.

Cheerful huh?

One third of all of the Psalms are written as laments- expressions of grief or sorrow- cries of pain and abandonment.

Does this strike you as a strange thing to form such a large part of the canon of hymns handed down to us from the ancient followers of JHWH?

Perhaps this says as much about us than it does about them. Because we tend to flick past these songs of Lament, and focus instead on the resoundingly optimistic songs- the ones that promise love, salvation and personal fulfilment.

I think this misses the point. They are there for a reason.

I recently heard one dominant stream of Christianity described as ‘Moralistic Therepeutic Deism– a watered down faith that sees God as a kind of ‘divine therapist’, who serves as some kind of combination life coach/rich benevolent uncle- as long as we keep certain moral codes. Particularly the ones about sex.

But is this the God we encounter in the pages of the Bible?

There is certainly a flavour within many of the Psalms that would suggest that God is their God- theirs alone. He would save them, smite their enemies. Israel will prosper as long as it righteousness is found at the core of the Holy Nation.

But alongside this is a fear of the unknown mysterious YHWH. The jealous God whose very presence can spell death and destruction. If they got it wrong- even inadvertently- then enemies would pour through the gates of the city murdering and pillaging. And they did. The salvation they prayed for was very immediate- and could never be commanded or taken for granted.

Confusingly (and astonishingly) this same God however was capable of such tender love and mercy- sustaining the life of the nation like manna on desert dew.

The glimpses of God we see in the Psalms always feel to me to be just that- glimpses. Almost as if the ancient Hebrews are describing an elephant after glimpsing only it’s toenail, or the tip of it’s trunk.

We Christians believe we have seen a little more of the Elephant- we have a hindsight perspective given by our encounter with Jesus after all…or perhaps we just looked from a different direction- given the mess we often make of it all.

These songs of lament remind us that life is unpredictable. We are vulnerable- every one of us- from shooting stars or congenital heart disease or undeserved reputations. There will be wars and terror threats, and wrongful imprisonment. Our loved ones will pass away and leave us in a sea of grief. There is darkness in the human condition- but also great light.

And they also remind us that this God we serve is not a tame God. He did not make us and set us on our paths merely so that we may be more fulfilled within our already comfortable lives.

Perhaps he made us for adventure.

For mission.

For service to the other.

Above all he made us to love- particularly those whose song is currently one of lament.

Aoradh meditations, Psalm 131, Sunday…

SUNDAY

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3 Israel, put your hope in the LORD
both now and forevermore.

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In the cave of my dark days

I sometimes bear no hope

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But still I hold on to a hope

For a hope to yet return

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And there is a faint flicker

Of an old dancing drum

Somewhere deep within

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And even when the light is bright on the statues they made

To celebrate my success

Still the sun is warming open  fine cracks

Laying me down

As dust

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But when I tumble

I will fall

Into the open arms

Of the loving God

Aoradh Meditations, Psalm 131, Friday…

FRIDAY

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I am like a weaned child with its mother;

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The half-shadow you cast on my spirit

Is warm and soft

And I am left hollow from feasting

And ragged from all my richness

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I am desperate-

Reaching out beyond these straws I grasped

Craving for the shape of you

Held in distant memory

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Catch me in this simple thing

Called home

 

Aoradh meditations, Psalm 131, Thursday…

THURSDAY

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2 But I have calmed and quieted myself,

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Time is a claw in which I am squeezed

Each day hooked on a hundred demands

Each second hard wired to the current crisis

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And in all the noise of it all

You are silent

Because you were not in the thunder

You were not in the lightning

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You were not in my efficiency

You were not found in my effectiveness

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You were waiting

In the stillness

For an end of the me

So the we could begin