Dominating world news this week has been the death of seven people on a private yacht, including the owner, Mike Lynch and his daughter. The 184 foot Yacht cost Lynch £40 million. We all understand why this is world news and these things were not;
In June of this year, Greek coastguards alegedly (according to eye witnesses) threw migrants overboard, to their deaths. You can read about this here.
Also in June, at least 11 people were declared dead and 64 others were ‘missing’ after two ships were wrecked off southern Italy.
According to a March report by IOM’s Missing Migrants Project, more than 27,000 people have died in the Mediterranean Sea over the last decade, whilst trying to reach southern Europe from northern Africa.
Meanwhile, the Italian Government has responded to these events by trying to prosecute rescue ships for ‘trafficking.’ It did not work, thanks to Italian courts refusing to play ball.
These disparities should shock us to the core, but…
It is always difficult to talk about money and so if this feels uncomfortable, move on. Otherwise, hear me out as I try to do justice to this rather tricky subject. After all, many of us wonder whether it might be possible to make a living through art and so I intend to be rather candid.
Michaela and I have been making a living through art, poetry and pottery for about eight years now and have loved every minute of it. We took a deliberate decision to live creatively and simply, knowing that this would have major financial implications. We have not regretted this decision for a moment and here we are, still doing OK, still making art, still paying our bills. We are proof that another way of life is possible, not just through sacrifice and ‘going without’, but by chosing to live towards what matters, what feels important. We only wish we had made the move sooner.
Let’s puts some numbers on it
We live these days on a shared income of around £25K per annum, roughly half of my (Chris’s) last annual salary when I was a Service Manager in health and social care. We have to declare a privilege here, in that we live in our own house, without a mortgage thanks to selling our old house and moving somewhere smaller. (We are aware that housing costs are a huge part of many people’e outgoings, and many feel that ownership outright is totally out of reach.)
We currently run two vehicles, both 11 years old and on their last legs. One is a van, necessary for all the ceramics events we do, the other an old runabout that we use locally. The hope is we can find a vehicle that will do both jobs, but for now, our biggest costs are keeping these two in running condition.
We are all seeing spiralling energy costs, and our art depends on an electric kiln!
Our income, as with many artists and creatives, had a big dip last year. We are OK, but it forced us to think carefully about what we do, how we use our time, what our output should be and how we might diversify. We make no complaints here, as most small businesses will be in the same place.
The business of selling art
There has always been an inherent contradiction in the fact that our decision to live more frugally and creatively was dependent from the start on other people using their disposable income to buy things that we make. Unsprisingly, when people worry about their own income, they have less capacity for purchasing art… although, conversely, many of us keenly feel the need to connect with object of meaning, or to lift a friend with that special thing from distance.
Our experience at the last major ceramics event might be instructive. Overall income was only slightly down from the previous year at the same venue, but the pattern of sales was very different. We make objects ranging from the teens of pounds to around £400 for the largest one-off pots and pictures. We would normally expect our main earnings to be from mid-range items of around £40-80 – vases, poetry plaques and the like – but at the last event, we sold almost nothing in this middle range. Unsurprisingly, most sales were smaller, sub £30 items. Many of these were bought as gifts and often came with lovely stories about the person they were bought for. However, over half our earnings came from the sale of our most expensive offerings.
Perhaps this pattern reflects the way our economy is working at present – many of us are feeling the squeeze, whilst others have done well – but also, through the conversations with customers, people are making conscious attempts to invest in objects of meaning. That is after all what art is for.
Art has always depended to a lesser or greater degree on patrons, on investors, on those able and willing to release money in support those who create the art. In exchange, these people form a relationship with the art, with the artist, and hopefully with the meaning the art is reaching for.
We can honestly say that the greatest pleasure in making our art comes at the point when we meet others who are moved by it. It is often an emotional exchange, full of stories of loss, of hope, of love. The purchase that comes after these exchanges may be very small, out of all proportion to the memory it leaves in it wake.
Of course, we are deeply grateful for these exchanges, but even beyond this, we have come to see them as part of the business of art itself. If we have a calling, it is towards this.
If you have not heard of this before, this is a way for patrons of art (or ‘Patreons’) to support artists directly, through a monthly subscription (paid in American dollars!) In return (depending on what ‘tier’ you subscribe to) you recieve rewards in the form of art.
Seatree has a Patreon account, under the name of Seatree community. This has three tiers, as follows
Tier one ($3 a month) access to a monthly e-mal with a made-for-Patreon-only video based around a new poem.
Tier two ($10 a month) as above, plus a monthly hand written piece of art by Michaela, featuring the words of another poem, rendered in her own wonderful style as shown in the image above and the video below
Tier three ($20 a month) as above, plus a monthly piece of pottery, either as a surprise or one agreed with you.
We both love doing these Patreon things, but we really need to widen our community to make this work for us. If you would like to join us, you would be very welcome! Simply click here and away you go.
Here is a sample of one of the tier one videos (normally only available to those who subscribe, so I hope they will forgive me!)
This week, I blocked an old school friend on FB, after she shared a number of posts that were clearly racist, anti-muslim and anti-immigrant – oh and there was one of those ‘share this if you think we should look after our own before spending billions in foreign aid’ posts too.
The thing is, this woman was someone I remember as being a quiet, kind, nice girl. What happened to make her politics so angry, so violent? Part of the answer might be local – my home town happens to be the constituency seat of the repugnant Lee Anderson, former deputy chair of the Conservative Party and now a Reform party MP after his racism became too toxic even for the Tories. In other words this place;
I feel a deep sadness when I watch this film. If feels like the legacy of working class collective consciousness that gew up during the mid and post industrial period has been eroded down to a sort of angry desperation which is searching for someone/something to blame, and so is wide open to the easy answers, and the convenient victims, offered to them by dreadful men like Anderson.
I say ‘dreadful men’, but I ‘know’ him. I have not met him personally, but he used to work with Michaela’s uncle in the mines, before Thatcher closed them all, decimating whole communitiies during my teenage years. My late sister knew him when he worked in the constituency office of the then Labour party MP for Ashfield. His unfolding and unravelling to the extreme right has been the same trajectory as the wider politics of the area, so I feel ike I understand Anderson. He is that man in the corner of the pub who makes people laugh and holds court with his loud opinions. He has verbal intelligence, quick wit and that say-it-like-it-is bluntness that seems authentic and appropriately ‘northern’. Of course, he is also a bigot and as slippery as a greased rope.
Regretably, Anderson has read the room. His journey from Labour party staffer, to the top of the Conservative party, then to the extreme right wing has not been about principles, it has been about political electability. He has been able to ride that same wavecrest that saw the end of the ‘Red wall’ by Boris Johnson’s populist Tories. He took the racist rhetoric of people like Patel and Braverman, along with the fear mongering and division making over immigration, and gave it a Bentick miners welfare twist, leading him inevitably towards the right – and more than enough of the good people of Ashfield went with him.
Now we jave far right mobs on the streets, setting fire to police cars, stoning mosques and trying to burn down hotels housing asylum seekers – people fleeing from war, murder and rape. As if they are the problem. As if they have stolen our country. As if they are the wealthy elites storing up more and more wealth, more and more property. As if they closed down the mines and hollowed out the high streets, as if they clog the corridors of out Accident and Emergency wards. As if they personally emasculated each and every one of those red faced men standing at the bar in England football shirts.
We need some light relief.
How can this happen? How did people get so angry? How does this anger become a social movement- a moraly-bankrupt, based-on-lies eruption of fake-righteous activism?
Lessons from the past
Firstly, we have to pay heed to history. This is not the first time after all. It is almost a cliche to talk this way so i will not labour the point, but look at the economic circumstances that led to the rise of fascism in the 30s, or the battles against the racists and antisemites in east end of London in the austerity at the end of the second world war. In the words of the proverb Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
Political discourse
Politics is about the operationalise of ideas, right? It is about justice and looking after the weak and poor. It is the way that large diverse populations are able to work out differences and work towards peaceful consensus. It gives everyone a seat at the table. No? That is NOT what it is really like? OK, well can we at least agree that our system is the least worst option? Has the bar sunk so low?
What happens when politics loses contact with overarching ideology or principles? When power seems an end in itself?
What happens when – rightly or wrongly – the perception grows in a population that we are beset by ‘problems’. These ‘problems’ are defined poorly of course, because they are complex and filtered through information sources that are often untrustworthy and controlled by powers that have a vested interest. Then, what if the political system we vote for seems powerless to address these problems in a way that makes any obvious difference?
One answer is that clever people see this as a political opportunity. The Tories tried it first, by framing the problem in a way that could divide and anger just enough people to make a political difference at the voting booth. In the absence of hope, give them fear, give them anger. Give them hate, because nothing unites like a common enemy.
But who makes the best enemy? Who deserves our anger most? This takes us back to the question of by whom and how our ‘problems’ are defined.
We now have a Labour party fight-back, who have offered little or no hope in relation to those ‘problems’, rather playing a political card called caution.
The freedom of information
The internet. The ultimate expression of libertarianism. A free, open space in which everyone (or every geek at very least) has access to the same megaphone as the rich and powerful. Except that is not how things panned out.
Firstly, if everyone has a megaphone, that is a whole lot of noise.
Then there is that algorithm thing. We run a small business, and anyone who does this will be well versed in just how damned complicated a game we have to play to game Google towards recognising our humble offerings on the altar of the algorithm. The time this takes is entirely open ended. This is not a level playing field.
Much more seriously however is that other quality of the algorithm – the way it feeds on attention. The way it feeds us ever more extreme versions of what it thinks we are interested in. The way it allows us to exist outside our bodies as excarnate, silicone avatars, devoid of the mediating effect of fleshy proximity, insulated from responsibility. They become externalised egos, allowing us a certain liberty and freedom we would find appalling in reality. There are some unintended, but convenient to some, consequences to all this, in that extreme megaphones become much louder.
The two-dimensional slicone goggles starts to affect our every day ways of seeing.
Truth or fiction- who cares. Who is loudest? Whose content makes my outrage tingle most?
And some clever people know how all this works – they can game it, use it as a tool for mass maniplation. The Cambridge files laid all this bare, but there has been no corrective, no regulatory response. It sits there as an open undemocratic secret.
Of course not- after all, we know what the internet has told us about vaccines. We have made our bed and we must lie in it. There is no medicine for this kind of poison.
I really do think this is true in one sense. We can’t make a world without extremes or without the algorithm. Thugs will always be thugs and politics will always be political. The poor will always be with us. Wars will always force refugees out on the terrible road, longing for distant mythical places of peace. It has always been this way.
Dear friends, I cannot hope for the end of violence, but I can sing of the present reality of love.
I can tell you that the same person I unfriended on facebook was kind to me in ways I will remember.
I can hope that deep inside each and everyone of us on all sides – rioters , counter-protestors, police – is god. That the deepst, most truest part of us all, is god.
I am still processing a poem I wrote a couple of weeks ago. Here it is again.
This week, we are running a pop up shop over the water from where we live, in a place called Gourock. The shop space is on a street full of galleries so always attracts people who love art, as well as the day trippers and the lunch hour wanderers. It has been pretty busy today, with a smattering of sales which were welcome, but I can honestly say that the conversations I have found myself immersed in have been much more important.
A social worker, beaten up by the job, unable to hold back tears. We spent ages talking about the strain and stress of it all and the skew we feel towards kindness in a system that has no recognition of what this look like sometimes.
A pair of former hospice workers, out to meet old colleagues.
A jazz musician fresh from a walk around Arran talking about the frustrations of the music business.
A childrens outreach worker, whose caring heart means that she is the one from her team who does the birthdays and the get-well gifts.
A teacher rejoicing that one of her colleagues has found her way towards something better than the strain of her current job, so she was looking for a gift to send her on her way.
Then there are those discussions that I will call ‘spiritual but not religious’.
Suddenly I find myself sharing the deepest parts of life with others. Perhaps some words in a piece of art have unlocked something. The shape of something half forgotten which then bursts out into the space like a brightly painted trout. I have had several of those today and each one has felt precious. In a world where so many people have left Church and formal religion behind, perhaps art and poetry – even pottery – might be one of the ways we can still connect, first with each other, then with something else, that I would tentatively still call god – even if she takes shapes I no longer know or wish to define.
So I am grateful for our little shop. I even think there will be people I have met today who I will meet again, who will become part of my journey as I hope to be of theirs.
I am just getting over a nasty dose of the old Covid and starting to look forward to running a pop-up shop in a lovely space over the water- McGilps.
The shop is a way for us to showcase our pottery to an increasingly art-interested Inverclyde. This will be our second time in McGilps, and last time I loved it. So many good conversations, and we sold some work, allowing us to continue doing what we do. Alsongside this trading, we have also tried to put on a couple of events, including a poetry reading or two.
In fact, the poetry evenings are starting to take a rather lovely shape. I choose a theme, then spend a long time gathering poems. I always start with a few favourites (including some of my own) but then the discoveries begin, though internet searches or dips into half-forgotten books.
The trick then is to make people feel welcome, comfortable and safe. This cannot be guaranteed despite our best effort, as the chemistry of a human gathering is partially imported and not fully manufactured in the moment. The last McGilps gathering was special though- one of those evenings which live on in the spirit long afterwards.
Next Thursday evening, we go again. You are invited. It will be free this time (last time we charged twenty quid, but it felt wrong to charge for such a beautiful space) although we will take donations for the Amos Trust.
This time we ill be exploring poems of protest and resistance. I have written a lot of these, perhaps too many. Poetry always seems to give important voice to oppressed people. The thing is however, protest poems are not just strident protest, not just the calling out of the powerful and the politics of justice. To illustrate my point, I offer you a teasers of one of the poems I hope we will read on Thursday. It may seem long, but it won’t when you read it.
Tomorrow, we have an election. A couple of weeks ago, I watched this film, made in the constituency I was born in. I even know some of the people interviewed. The current MP is the pantomime villain better known as Lee Anderson. After I watched the film, I felt miserable about it all for days. Is this really the best of what people from where I grew up can reach towards?
Never before have I felt so politcally homeless, not even in the darkest days of Blair’s war years. Back then, even though I left the Labour Party, at least there were many within the parliamentary party who carried forward the traditions of democratic socialism, who worked for social justice and international peace. Those people are no longer welcome in Starmer’s Labour Party.
I should mention that i joined again during the Corbyn years, then left again when Starmer was revealed to have lied to the membership in order to win leadership. It still baffles me as to why there has been no political cost to him of these lies. The only answer to the lack of media scrutiny is that they have already decided that he will form the next government, come what may.
Starmer has inherited a situation in which he does not need to offer anything to the electorate. The Tories are so bad, that all he needs to do is to look ‘safe’ – to not frighten the power brokers or the comfortable folk of middle England. Throw in a bit of red meat for the disenfranchised working classes who have been fed all sorts of fears about immigration and he is home and dry. But he has gone a lot futher than that, purging the party of as many traces of Corbyn as possible, not least Corbyn himself. The justification is always this- it was necessary to be electable, and to secure a significant majority.
But has there ever been an election so devoid of hope? An election with so little new ideas in evidence? Instead we have the promise of more austerity, more poverty, more wealthy people getting wealthier.
I hope I am wrong. I hope Starmer has another three card trick up his sleve that makes me seem foolish. What is the point of a stonking majority if not to action a new political agenda? Perhaps he is about to reveal a whole set of radical policies the moment he rolls in to Downing street?
Even if he does not, perhaps there is enough evidence to suggest that some things will get better even under a leader as unambitious as Starmer? NHS waiting lists perhaps? A slight increase in investment in public services? Perhaps some genuine movements towards net zero?
This is as much hope as I can summon right now.
As doe my own vote, I am faced with very little choice. For the first time in my life, I can not in all conscience vote Labour. I would vote Green, but there is no Green candidate in Argyll. I have met Brendam O’Hara, who is a good man. Even though I am slightly worse than ambivalent about Scottish independence, I think it might be a vote for someone I beleive to be intelligent, honest and passionate about social justice. Not to mention his stance on Gaza.
Some say the SNP have been in power too long, and that Labour may be on the way back even in Scotland. If so, I hope Brendan will be still making speaches like this in parlament.
Another Proost podcast is out today, this one with the wonderful singer-songwriter Yvonne Lyon, in which she talks about her career and her inspiration. If you don’t know her music, she writes beautiful, intelligent, deeply spiritual songs full of humanity. Rob and I do our best to explore the breadth of what has been a remarkable career, then ask her to talk about how the industry works and what might help musicians find support and community in order to get their voices out there.
Significantly, Yvonne is clear that she no longer wants to play the commercial game. She has made her own small revolution.
It probably goes without saying that it has never been harder for musicians to make a living from their art. Even artists like Yvonne, with all that back catalogue of wonderful music, with regular radio play and exposure both sides of the Atlantic, struggle to make a living from music alone, as she speaks about candidly in the episode above. This feels deeply wrong. Even if is was always s/he who paid the piper who calls the tune, at least the piper used to be paid.
Of course, the stranglehold of streaming platforms have a lot to do with this, but it also comes down to one thing- greed. To paraphrase Marx, our economic system trends only towards those who own the means of (musical) production.
If the only way to evaluate the value of art is in relation to its profitability can good art ever be made? Perhaps, but it is also certain that lots of good art, even important art, will be excluded.
We need a revolution.
If music is a commodity, like turnips or dishwashers, and as such it is only as good as the financial spreadsheet says it is, and history tells us that the workers (the artists in this case) only ever get a fair deal if they have power. Access to mass media platforms promised this power for a while, but this access is meaningless now, given the control of the corporations. There is a job here for collective action to shift the balance of power back towards the musical proletariat. After all, it is they who walk the high places.
There is another part of this story however, which is how musicians collectivise. Where is a safe place to explore, to find mentoring and encouragement? Who will showcase emerging talent when many venues are struggling to make ends meet because of soaring energy prices and rents?
Those involved in the Proost discussion are thinking along these lines, but the revolution will only happen if the prolteriat unite. In other words, if people get involved.
This week and next week there will be two Proost podcast episodes released, featuring interviews with musicians. The first one (out already) is with the rather wonderful Ant Clifford, of the band Lofter. Next week we will hear from our lovely friend Yvonne Lyon.
These chats are part of our on-going pondering as to the shape and purpose of a revival of Proost, an old publishing organisation. It might be interesting to note that before the old Proost took on the role of publishing loads of written material, video and animation etc. it was first concieved of as a record label.
The questions we are trying to explore are some of these;
What role does music take in our spiritual lives? More than just soundtrack, might it actually shape us in real and meaningful ways? If so, how?
What kinds of music might we want to showcase? Who might help us navigate a world we know little about, particularly the music being made by non-white,non-male, non-middle-class people like us?
What is the difference between worship music and ‘music of the spirit’ of the kind we are most interested in?
Who is making this kind of music? Are there people out there who should be heard, but are struggling with an indifferent music money machine?
Is there a need for a simple network to support grass-roots music that seeks to make a difference?
We have an inkling (particularly following these two conversations) that musicians need connection, just like all artists do. In fact, there may be particular reasons why musicians need this more than most. The music business has taken such a pounding in the last few years. The rise of streaming services has placed all the earning power out of reach of all but the biggest stars, and the pandemic left many performing artists in a hole. Meanwhile rising energy costs are forcing many vanues that previously supported live music to close.
As Yvonne points out, music is also relational at heart. The image of the tortured bedroom genius, making tracks on a laptop, might have some basis in reality, but actually, music flies when it is made in community, when it sparks between different creative inputs on different instruments. It comes alive when people listen. It creates a space in which people can transcend, almost uniquely.
But it can also be a hard road, and musicians need one another.
This is an old theme here- in fact it might be worth reading this first, in which I asked a list of questions like this;
If more people who seek to live out faith in the UK are NOT attending Church regularly than those who still do, what is Church doing wrong? Or what are those non attenders looking for that they are not finding? (I should add that I personally am done with trying to rescue Church.)
How can faith form and reform without gatherings, without buildings, without programmes and without paid staff?
How will we ‘make diciples’? How might we learn? How will we find commonality and inspiration? How will we prevent our ‘coals going cold’?
If we even wanted to make converts (I don’t, but I do long for people to turn towards good, to long for better) what would we do with them after they converted?
If people are free to believe what they want, and to practice what they feel, what is the point of doctrine or creed? Is this OK? How much freedom to make a new way is acceptable? Do we eventually have to settle on a new orthodoxy? What if this new way takes extremist paths? How much variety can we tolerate?
One explanation/condemnation for church leaving we hear within Church is concerned with the scourge of post-modernist individualism. Those who leave do so because we are seduced by it. Whether this is true or not, it points to a cultural reality of isolation, ex-carnation and avotarism. (I might have made up at least one of those last words.) In this contect, how do people find connection and community?
Perhaps these church leavers need help. What does this look like? Where will the help come from?
There were some glaring ommissions from this list that I have been grappling with in myself, partly because of conversations with women who have had to live in a patriarchal society, and try to find meaning within a patriarchal church.
Then there is the fact that old lefties like me fail to see that even in our attempts to include, we end up making spaces that suit people just like me- white, middle class left-of-centre folk, who talk about social justice mainly from our places of comfort and security. We reach out of this of privilege only as ‘helpers’.
Meanwhile, I am working with Rob to try to revive an old organisation called Proost, formerly a platform for gathering church resources, and making them available to small missional groups, emerging church thingamies and alternative worship gatherings. It fell into disuse, and Rob had the idea of restarting it. I was interested in this idea because I remembered fondly the community of belonging that formed around old Proost. It was a large part of my own emergence as an ‘artist’ or a ‘poet’, and brought me into contact with lots of lovely people, some of whom remains an important part of my life.
But…
As we have started the process of re-imagining Proost, we have come up against that list of questions I posted above – and the further ones mentioned too. An overarching question then emerges of what a revived Proost would be for?
What community would it gather now? Where is there a need for this kind of community and what sort of meaning would this community regard as essential orthodoxy?
Where are the potential users of a new Proost? (as an aside, we could also ask where are all the old users of Proost?) Are they still in Church- and if so, what processes/events/resources/community can we offer that is not commonly available within Church? Or are they now often part of the Church diaspora, and if so, how can we support each other to find community, common purpose and shared meaning skewed towards grace?
There is another question for me too is around the importance of art and activism as a means for both personal engagement but also collective action towards change, and how these things might be encouraged, mentored and commissioned.
Already I am being taken outside my comfort zone in terms of what ‘activism’ might look like- how confrontative it might be. What are the right targets of this activism and how much might this cost us in an age of punative laws around protest here in the UK?
What is the point of a faith-based organisation if it only feeds the self-centred spiritual journeys and the creative egos of its own member. Is this not one of the legitimate criticisms of institutional Church?
What is the role of spirituality/faith in the face of war in Gaza, the impact of neoliberalism on vulnerable people, climate breakdown and mass extinction? How do we express our faith? How do we reach for alternatives? How do we structure ourselves towards the looking outwards rather than just creating opportunities for moral elevation for ourselves?
How do we listen to/include/defer to those voices prevoiusly excluded? How do we grapple with patriarchy. colonial legacies and the traumas they cause, both historically and presently. How do we celebrate and include people from an LGBTQ background?
How does our theology reshape and reform? Who decides what is ‘acceptabe’ and what is ‘marginal’?
Can an organisation contain these elements safely? How?
This is the Proost conversation that we are trying to have in the open, hoping that it will gatherer others who are asking the same questions. We are trying to be honest, not least about our own personal failure to deal with some of these questions in the past. We are also trying to be honest about our own incompetence, our lack of experience, our maleness, our whiteness and our middle-classness. I could add honest too about a longing for connection, for deeper meaning, for better ways to live and more loving ways to engage with the world.
It is easy to ask questions, but if we are going to actually do something, we have to try to answer at least some of them.
I think some answers are starting to take shape, (almost in the form of intuition, or widely held suspicion) of what a post-church network or organisation that seeks to give proper place to the way that spirituality might look like.
Or perhaps I am mainly talking about myself? (There I go with the questions again.)
Here is my provisional list of what an organisation suited to providing safe spaces for spiritual nomads might look like (and my provision thoughts as to what a reformed Proost might look like);
Decentred geographically and in terms of power structures
Offering inclusion but not obligation
Community making is non-hierarchical in nature
Leadership facilitative, not dominant
A very generous orthodoxy and a high value placed on tolerating difference
There is a presumption that individuals are responsible for their own spiritual formation
Attempts to engage with colonial/patriarchal legacies and trauma within both organisational structure and underpinning theology
Earth centred, through theologies of one-ness, am-ness, mystical Christ embodied in the world
Social justice is at the heart of theology and practice.
Physical gatherings are special ‘events’ , most regular contact is at distance, via internet
Resources produced/employed emerge from dispersed, grass-roots activities within the community. Authenticity has a high value
Art and creativity are key tools for personal refelection, community building and cutural engagement