Resolute…

Resolute

The hands of the clock

Point at me and mock

Like a river blocked

By slowly eroding rock

Tick tock

The time will come

My lovely one

When we are done

Cracked up by sun

No sooner here

Than gone

Still resolute

Like King Canute

Or a shallow rooted tree

You

And me

Will be

Bigger…

Bigger

Some people make you bigger

They swell you up inside

They look for things to celebrate

And speak your name with pride

Others make you smaller

Contempt fills up their eyes

The words they use are rapier sharp

As they cut you down to size

This world we walk awhile upon

Is bursting full of wonder

But this fragile hand you offer me

Is worth an empire’s plunder

Holy darkness


Is it darkness that we fear

Or the possibility of

No longer knowing?

This shrinking down

From adult to tiny child

As the tentacles of night

Enfold us

Is like a passage from this place

To another

It is the terror in need

Of a mother

It is the foxhole we share

With each other

But then what is it- this conspiracy of biology?

This delusion we shape

In rods

And cones?

Perhaps the darkness can be holy

Stripped of neon

It glows

And crackles

And beyond the edge of us

Off the rainbow register

There is a seeing

Without seeing

And a knowing

That knows

Nothing

Out in the indigo darkness

You are

And here are we

With hardly a spark

Between us

Shining


Weakness…

In her beautiful response to this piece, Aileen reminded me of the following verse

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 8:8-10

Which set me thinking again.

About the God of all things who seems drawn to humble broken people.

There is a danger that we come to be familiar with a certain kind of weakness, and wear it like a badge- we are after all called into a transformative encounter with the Spirit of God.

But still, we only find this encounter in- weakness. When our own ways of coping run out, and we let go the hunger to possess, to overcome, to self actuate.

Listen to me- like I have got this sorted!

Time for a poem I think…

Weakness

A bruised reed may not break
But still it withers
So it is that sometimes
I fear these wounds
Are terminal
I grasp for the shreds of my own strength
And hunger for soul shrinking success
That comes and yet is never enough
What is this power
Made perfect
In weakness?
Could it be that the mess of me
Might yet be compost
And seeds you sow
Will grow?

Remembrance Sunday- and our capacity to destroy…

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Today is Remembrance Sunday.

Old men will cry

Women will open up old cupboards of loss and let the sepia light leak out a little

Young kids will be distracted by brass bands for a while then fidget through silence that seems much longer than a minute

Politicians will assume a pose of media-appropriate sombre dignity

Most of us will feel a familiar ambivalence-

War is terrible, but we continue to make war. Peace is a blessing, but we are stirred by stories of gallantry and self sacrifice that only seem possible in the context of brutality and slaughter.

Our inherited memories of the last war are of a nation forged together in terrible adversity in heroic struggle against the rise of pure evil. The fact that we triumphed at terrible cost is for ever something that makes us proud. Those that died so that we might have escaped the fate of so many other countries deserve our deep respect.

But we also know that the story of war is rarely one of good and evil. It is about evil and still more evil.

And evil has a history- it has the big scale history of previous armistice and forced accommodation and compromise. The sort of history that we can read about in books- Empires rising and falling.

But there is also small history that tells the story of how we as humans seem to have such a propensity to breed hate for one another.

How we look at difference and see danger. How we segregate so easily into ‘insiders’ and ‘outsiders’. How we demonise those people whose prominence threatens our own.

Most of us will have little influence on big histories- and my generation have been blessed to see few of ours names on war memorials. But if we are honest, those same engines for hate and war work within is all.

So this Remembrance Day, let us remember those who fought and died.

But let us also stand in examination of our own failures to follow the way of peace.

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A time to hate

There is a time for all things under heaven…

One summer evening I lay on my back as the light leached from the passing day
And watched the stars slowly flicker into the frame of the darkening sky
At first one here, another there
Then all of a sudden the sky was infinite
Full of fragile tender points of ancient light
Some of which started its journey towards us before there was an ‘us’
And I wonder
Is there someone up there
Raising his tentacles to the night sky
And using one of his brains
To wonder about me?

And should this unseen and oddly shaped brother across the huge expanses
Seek contact
What would he make of us?

I heard an astronomer speak once about the possibility of life elsewhere
In this beautiful ever expanding universe
He had come to believe that intelligent life will always
Find ever more ingenious ways
To destroy itself

And I fear the truth of this
That somewhere in the messy beauty of humanity
We nurture an evil seed –
Grow it in an industrial compost of scientific creativity
Water it with greed and avarice
And hot house it in a mad competition for the first fruits
Lest our neighbours get to market first
And once we work up production
There is no going back
No squeezing back the genie into the oil can
There is only the need for bigger, better

And the defending and defeating
And the ranging of rockets
Exploit whoever
Denude wherever
And if anyone should get in the way
Dehumanise
Overcome
Or destroy
Set up barb wire borders
Teach one another
To hate

So for the sake of green men
And Scottish men
May we yet stand before the eternal night
And decide that truth and beauty and grace will be our legacy
In this fragile passing place that God gave us

May we decide that now is not
The time
To hate

From ‘Listing’- here.

The Firth of Clyde at night…

 

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The moon was out on the old river again tonight. It is hard to resist the click of the shutter…

I think it time to re-post this poem too-

Firth of Clyde

Broad estuary
Flowing coal black
Flecked with the streetlight
Lines of amber combed out by the current
Moving
Yet standing still

The Clyde is running clean now
Rich in all manner of living things
Yet somehow
Sterile

Like the fresh paint
On a mothballed dockyard crane
Masking the memories
Of an age of smoke and steam
Now gone

No more slap of paddles
Or thump of ships moving in the night
No more bulging holds
Of Empire plunder
No more sugar, no more spice

A thousand ships have carried off the morning tide
Past Bute and beyond the Cumbraes
Beckoned by Paddies Milestone
And drowned by Sirens on some distant shore
Now flotsam
Of this mighty River

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Persian poetry 3- Rumi…

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So, we come to Rumi.

He was the only poet I had sort of heard of when I began reading this wonderful old poetry. I knew of him as an almost alien mystic, but once again, the beauty of his words seem to reach over the centuries, and become a bridge over the religious/cultural divides that we still build up high. There is such depth of humanity in this poetry that it deserves to be so much better known in the West.

So who was this man Rumi?

His full name was Jalāl ad-Dīn Muḥammad Balkhi and it seems we know a lot about his life, despite the 800 year odd years that have passed since he was born. Many of his letters have survived (as many as 147 personal letters) and he was revered in his own lifetime, and so people recorded his words and wisdom.

We know that he had a famous father, who was a poet and learned man in his own right. We also know he was born around 1207 during turbulent times, as the Mongol hordes where slashing and burning their way across the known world, and pushing back the edges of what had been the great Seljuq empire which split into small Emerates.

Rumi was thought to have been born in Balkh, an ancient city in what is now Afghanistan- previously a melting pot of religious ideas- first a centre for Zoroastrian thought, later Buddhism but by the time of Rumi, Islam was in the ascendant.

Rumi’s family fled the advancing Mongols in the nick of time, traveling west, first performing the Hajj and eventually settling in the Anatolian city Konya (capital of the Seljuk Sultanate of Rum, now located in Turkey.

The story of his life goes something like this-

Rumi follows in his fathers footsteps- becoming a scholar at the University in Konya, and eventually his fame as a poet and learned man spread.

At the height of his success, he encountered a Sufi called Shams-e-Tabrīzī. This meeting changed his life. Everything that he counted as worthwhile- success, wealth, position- all this was suddenly called into question by what he saw in the poverty and simplicity of the life of the wandering Sufi.

He started neglecting his public duties and following after his new friend. The association brought him ridicule and so he was forced to resign his job, and then began a 4 year friendship with Shams.

Then one day, as suddenly as he came into Rumi’s life, his friend disappeared. Some say he was murdered by one of Rumi’s sons, perhaps embarrassed and resentful of the hold this raggedy man had over his father. Others said that he traveled East for new adventures. Rumi spent years looking for him.

Rumi’s life from this time was dedicated to a deep spirituality. For him, the human condition was empty, like a reed plucked from the bank of a river, and cut to form a flute. Life might make holes in the flute through to its hollow centre, but unless the reed was filled with the breath of the Beloved, then it would be for ever empty. So the purpose of life was to journey back to union with Beloved, from whom we have been cut off.

A craftsman pulled a reed from the reedbed
cut holes in it, and called it a human being.

Since then it has been wailing a tender agony
of parting, never mentioning the skill
that gave it life as a flute.

Although a devout Muslim, the journey of the Sufi according to Rumi, was to be encountered in personal experience- not in abstract doctrine and creed. Some of his ideas would seem to sit well within universalist ideas of faith. For example-

I searched for God among the Christians and on the Cross and therein I found Him not.
I went into the ancient temples of idolatry; no trace of Him was there.
I entered the mountain cave of Hira and then went as far as Qandhar but God I found not.
With set purpose I fared to the summit of Mount Caucasus and found there only ‘anqa’s habitation.
Then I directed my search to the Kaaba, the resort of old and young; God was not there even.
Turning to philosophy I inquired about him from ibn Sina but found Him not within his range.
I fared then to the scene of the Prophet’s experience of a great divine manifestation only a “two bow-lengths’ distance from him” but God was not there even in that exalted court.
Finally, I looked into my own heart and there I saw Him; He was nowhere else.

Rumi believed that we could encounter the Beloved through dance, music, art and of course- poetry. After his death others formed an order of Sufi’s that came to be known as the Whirling Dervishes, because of their wild ecstatic dancing, and regarded him as their spiritual father.

He died in 1273 and a shrine still stands over his grave in Konya-

Rumi's tomb, Konya

Time for some more poetry-

The first one is thought to relate to friendship. It makes me think of campfire on dark nights on island trips with friends-

We point to the new moon

This time when you and I sit here, two figures
with one soul. we’re a garden,
with plants and birdsong moving through us
Like rain

The stars come out. We’re out
of ourselves, but collected. We point
to the new moon, its discipline and slender joy.

We don’t listen to stories
full of frustrated anger. We feed
On laughter and tenderness
we hear around us
when we are together.

And even more incredible, sitting here in Konya
we’re this moment in Khorasan and Iraq.

We have these forms in time
and another in the elsewhere
that’s made of this closeness

Say who I am

I am dust particles in sunlight
I am the round sun.

To the bits of dust I say, stay.
To the sun, keep moving.

I am morning mist,
And the breathing of evening.

I amwind in the top of a grove
and surf on the cliff.

Mast, rudder, helmsman and keel.
I am also the coral reef they founder on.

I am a tree with a trained parot in its branches.
Silence, thought and voice.

The musical air coming through a flute
A spark off a stone, a flickering
in metal. Both candle
and the moth crazy around it.

Rose and the nightingale
lost in the fragrance.

I am all orders of being, the circling galaxy,
the evolutionary intelligence, the lift
and the falling away. What is
and what isn’t.

Hold: this space- new site…

Congratulations to Cheryl and friends down under on their lovely new site– looks great!

Loads of alt worship stuff, and lovely writing…

This is on their front page-

Take the clay of our lives and shape it to love
Take the clay of the church and shape it to grace
Take the clay of the world and shape it to peace
Take the clay of today and shape it to hope

And then breathe your spirit into all
again

For ever and ever
Amen

Choose life…

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Today I attended the annual Choose Life conference at Stonefield Castle.

Choose life is an organisation working to reduce the numbers of people who die through suicide in Scotland. In 2004, 803 people died through suicide in Scotland.

My mind was constantly filled with memories of my friend Neil who died in 2007. The tragedy of the end of his life and the grief and pain and loss his passing left behind has been one of the most significant events of my adult life. Sheila- may life continue to grow anew for you and the kids, and may you know that you are loved…

The conference today was creative and engaging- dance, film, poetry and discussion.

And I wrote this- changing a poem I had written already…

Sanctuary

Find for me a dark place

For at the moment, I can bear no light

Find for me a silent place

Because your words lie empty

And hollow moments echo

With their passing

Find for me a place to be

So that I may drag out the distant memory

The possibility

Of me